My parents are back, and while I'm on spring break unfortunately right after she came back after 4 weeks my mom immediately has to go back to work. My dad as well, but today he works from home. My parents told me about the funeral and the people that visited. My oldest uncle, who was in jail, came to the funeral in cuffs with police officers around him. My mom had to pay for him to come all the way from Taitung (south of the country) to Taipei (North).
During the preparations for the funeral, all descendants were supposed to thumb stamp on this form, which included my sister and me. But since we were on the other side of the globe, my parents just did it for us instead. When I heard that I just thought it was unfair that I still had school and couldn't just go back as well. My cousin printed a color photo and my parents brought it back. I sort of disliked that cousin due to other family matters, (he's way older than me though) but I was glad to hear how much work he was putting into caring for my grandfather before and after his passing.
I haven't cried since last month when I found out, but I think my body is just saving all those tears for when I do get to go back in a couple months. I feel kinda dumb and weak for holing up inside and not hanging out, especially since this is my last spring break (in high school) but I just don't have energy to go out. I'm not in deep grief but the anxiety and nervousness still bothers me. Exceptions include going out for my runs since I don't usually have to talk to people and it does make me feel better. I hope my grandfather will watch me graduate before he moves on.
Today I'm gonna double blog post since I've been working on this other blog about a game I use to play a lot, it's kind of unfortunate timing.